anxiety kills.

i will look back on this in about two to four years and wonder why i stressed so much.

well, this was just an excuse to post an amazing quote i found on mit blogs.

"You know -- the days before decisions are all so surreal. Things are out of your hands, you've done all that you could, and the outcome is uncertain.

You're certain you studied for all the right tests and did all the things that you wanted to do. You jumped higher than your own head, and maybe admissions will recognize that. Or maybe they won't.

The race to get into college encourages everyone "to get As, to get good SAT scores, to join clubs". Is it stressful and artificial? Hell yes -- Marilee Jones certainly thought so. Unfortunately the message is malinterpreted as numbers, letters, and club names on your application -- that's not what it's about. It's about growing up. Every day we reach for the "green dock light" that's always out of our reach. And every day we get a little bit taller.

I hope Monday's lonely letters on decisions.mit.edu aren't as important to you as the process you've taken to get there. You've been striving for nearly two decades of your life to discover yourself, your interests, and to develop your passions. Accepted, deferred, and rejected are only 8 byte words. You are not an 8 byte person.

Congratulations to all of you on Monday!"